I guess another way to ask it, on this spiritual blog and on many others it seems like a very linear thing: You awaken, your issues get blasted to the forefront, you process them all, and then you are clear on how to live your life. It doesn’t seem to be going that linearly for me. I awakened, and a bunch of issues came right away, but then things slowed way down and regular life is demanding my attention. If ear taking on too many responsibliites in life and derailing my path, but it also seems like my heart is calling me there.

It's so good to be reminded that the sky of awareness is where I'm headed/staying, not altered states of bliss (which are fine, but passing states like everything else). This also reminds me to let go into states of hell, from the restful peace of the sky of awareness. And that all passes.

I'm helped by the reminder that these hell states are often about letting go of more ego, and how that feels to the ego. So they are a good sign, and to stay with them, resting into them, and trusting Life's wisdom and unfolding processes.

I'm helped by the reminder that wisdom admits what is doesn't know, and that it's fine and necessary not to know.

Right now I don't have a clue in some longstanding cherished areas where I thought I 'knew' (such as relationship). It's very humbling, and my ego finds the unknown very scary. And I sense it's overall goodness and necessity.

I want to let go of all the ego's unknowns, and ask Life to help me and us all in this (and know I don't even have to ask, because that's what Life's designed to do).

I'm helped by being reminded that when nothing arises to do/say from the deep inner space, that means there's nothing to do/say, right now.